Eva is up on the rescue site for adoption. Turns out she has a vitamin deficiency. I have very conflicting feelings. I'm thrilled for Eva. I feel guilty. I'm sad, devastated, heartbroken and yet happy. I'm angry. I'm sad that Eva isn't here, she's not my dog anymore, I have no say and no way to make her mine again. I'm happy that she has a manageable condition and will live a long, happy, healthy life. I'm happy she is finally getting treatment. I'm happy because I know I made the right choice and if she was still here she would still be sick since we simply don't have the funds to have done all the testing the rescue did .
That being said, I'm angry. Angry I got handed a sick, poorly bred puppy that I fell in love with. Angry that instead of getting answers, the organization she was through just dumped her and didn't care enough to get answers. Angry that I was given information I believed and caused me to not push for testing of other things. Guilty that I didn't have the resources to get her the help she needed 3 years ago.
Eva will go to a wonderful, loving family and live a long, happy, healthy life. That's what matters. I wish I could have given it to her but I guess I did, in a way. I gave her the chance to get healthy in another way when I couldn't provide it.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Saturday, August 04, 2012
Random Update
This blog is a bit neglected but I wanted to update everyone who doesn't read my other blog.
The big news is that we are currently dog-less. Eva is ok, as far as we know, but we had to make the very difficult decision to release her to a golden retriever rescue. We are not in a financial position to get a bunch of testing done on her to figure out exactly what is wrong with her and therefore treat it. We never expected to be in that position, she wasn't expected to live to be a year old, much less be knocking on the door of 4. The vets before said it was her kidneys and/or cancer but last we talked to them they said it was neither and wanted to do more testing. We felt the best thing we could do is send her to a rescue who will find out exactly what's wrong and then either keep her in a permanent foster home or adopt her out to a fully informed family. I miss my sweet golden girl but know we did the right thing for her.
We presented Comet at the CAST graduation in June. She hadn't yet be re-matched with a family but I got an email a couple days ago from her new family! She's doing well and looks so happy with her girl!
As far as future puppy raising, I'm thinking that in about 6 months I will ask to be put on a waiting list for either a full lab or full poodle. I love the idea of a lab, Loden was my last labby and I miss having a solid dog on the end of my leash. On the other hand, I would love a poodle! I think they are amazing dogs and need to give one a chance to change my husbands mind about them.
As far as people updates, my baby boy is quickly approaching his first birth day. Although we don't celebrate birthdays, I can't believe how fast the time has gone and how much my little man amazes me, brings me joy, makes the world a better place. He's so funny, intelligent, stubborn and beautiful. I'm working on a first year video of him. He's almost walking, has a taken a couple steps unassisted so far.
I started a new weight loss goal yesterday. I'm so sick of feeling sick from the junk I eat and being fat. I want to be healthy for myself, my family and my future. So I plan on working out everyday and eating better. No actual diet plan, just striving to be a better, healthier me.
The big news is that we are currently dog-less. Eva is ok, as far as we know, but we had to make the very difficult decision to release her to a golden retriever rescue. We are not in a financial position to get a bunch of testing done on her to figure out exactly what is wrong with her and therefore treat it. We never expected to be in that position, she wasn't expected to live to be a year old, much less be knocking on the door of 4. The vets before said it was her kidneys and/or cancer but last we talked to them they said it was neither and wanted to do more testing. We felt the best thing we could do is send her to a rescue who will find out exactly what's wrong and then either keep her in a permanent foster home or adopt her out to a fully informed family. I miss my sweet golden girl but know we did the right thing for her.
We presented Comet at the CAST graduation in June. She hadn't yet be re-matched with a family but I got an email a couple days ago from her new family! She's doing well and looks so happy with her girl!
As far as future puppy raising, I'm thinking that in about 6 months I will ask to be put on a waiting list for either a full lab or full poodle. I love the idea of a lab, Loden was my last labby and I miss having a solid dog on the end of my leash. On the other hand, I would love a poodle! I think they are amazing dogs and need to give one a chance to change my husbands mind about them.
As far as people updates, my baby boy is quickly approaching his first birth day. Although we don't celebrate birthdays, I can't believe how fast the time has gone and how much my little man amazes me, brings me joy, makes the world a better place. He's so funny, intelligent, stubborn and beautiful. I'm working on a first year video of him. He's almost walking, has a taken a couple steps unassisted so far.
I started a new weight loss goal yesterday. I'm so sick of feeling sick from the junk I eat and being fat. I want to be healthy for myself, my family and my future. So I plan on working out everyday and eating better. No actual diet plan, just striving to be a better, healthier me.
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